here i go again on my own...maybe?

maybe she's right. maybe its time i stop being a chicken shit and i just tell you, or at least talk to you. at this point i'd even take a rejection to stop this feeling. and to stop the dreams. ive liked guys alot before, same amount as you but ive never had dreams about them. so maybe you are different. its not like the dreams are bad either. they all end pretty well so maybe i should just take a deep breath and take the plunge? its to terrifying though. i had someone tell me they thought i was fearless after knowing me for about a month. now she can see otherwise. ive been nervous around guys before but never like this. and oddly enough i think your kinda having the same feeling i do. every so often it seems like i catch you staring at me. maybe its just my imagination though, if you were staring im sure you would say something. so maybe ill just be on my own like ive been for the past year and a bit but maybe not. so if yuor reading this wanna let me know what you think so i can stop waking up even more confused and falling for you more and more. thanks <3
--aliciaa

uhoh

I hope I'm not just making these signs up in my head. That would truly suck! It seems so right, but maybe it's all just my imagination. I don't know what to believe anymore. I thought my imagination was slowly getting worse but if this whole thing is in my head I guess I was wrong, cause I even have myself fooled with this. Just so you know I think I really like you, but I could be wrong.
--aliciaa

its a long way down

So it's been over a month since I last blogged. That just goes to show you how boring my life has been and still is. Let's see, what's new with me. Well, I got Hedley's new cd. I went to Ottawa on a school trip and I'm going to the States next week. Nothing overly interesting though. Most interesting thing going on right now is mine and Althea's obsession with my 16th b-day *wink wink* oh if only you knew what this really means!
OH AND IF ONLY YOU KNEW! how i fell that is. By the way cause I know Althea will read this I'm still freaked out about my convo with a certain someone yesterday, it has truly weirded me out!! and now i can't get him outta my head. like i think im going insane.
maybe ill blog later today cause ill get bored i unno. so bye for now.
--aliciaa

thanks.

Im sick and tired of being sick and tired.
A line I have heard to much in my life.
I hate feeling like this
I hate feeling like I'm missing tons of school
I hate feeling like my teachers hate me
I hate feeling like kids don't like me cause they think I'm a walking disease
I hate feeling like I should live in a bubble
>>>>>yes like bubble boy<<<<<
I hate lots of things right now.
I hate how i always end up typing in a list form.

There are a few things I love.
I love the friends that stick by me
I love how these friends do everything they can to make me happy.
I love knowing these friends are true
I love knowing these friends would never abandon me
I love knowing I can always count on themm
I love knowing they will always be there
I love knowing that they are my friends

Here's a little story>>>
I've been sick for 3 days now. I have this one particular friend who spent these 3 days talking to me every chance she could trying to make me feel better and just keeping me company. She could have been doing a million other things but she chose to keep me company. I miss her and I know she misses me. She helped me keep my sanity well I've been home, talking about pretty much everything, joking around, goofing off, annoying people and failing miserably. without her these last few days would have been a major drag, I'm so lucky to have a friend like her. So thanks again you dont know how much I appreciate you!

Loooooser

Is it so wrong that when I see you my heart skips a beat, my breathing halts and my mind stops working. Nothing comes out right and I know I start laughing like a hyena. The butterflies start movie around at ultra speeds and I feel like I'll throw up at any given moment.
This happens not only when I see you but just thinking about you all these feelings come out. Too bad that just seeing you makes me so emotionally confused that I want to crawl into a dark hole even though your like the sun to me. So don't worry I'll just stare and wonder what its like to be held in your arms.

--aliciaa

I think I'll draw the line

I think I'm done.
I'm done with crushes.
I'm done with boys.
I'm done with likeing people who never return my feelings.
I'm done with stressing over how good I like for you.
I'm done with you not noticing me.
I'm done with thinking of you.
I'm done with hopeing you'll talk to me.
I'm done with cringing everytime i see you in the hall.
I'm done with the naucious feeling I get when I see you or hear your name.
I'm done with those butterflies that make me sick although it's the greatest feeling in the word.
I'm done with mixed signals.
I'm done with over analyzing things that I notice about your reactions.
I'm just done.

...I wish all that was true, cause truth betold babe i can't stop thinking about you!!

--aliciaa

hmm, puppy love?

Isn't it funny how you can be so into someone, like their all you think about. But then there's always that one person who you don't know as well and don't see as often but you would drop the other person for him/her in a heartbeat, emotions suck
--aliciaa

my simple definition

Webster's New World Dictionary AND Thesauraus

love (luv) n. 1. strong affection or liking for someone or something 2. a passionate affection of one person for another 3. the object of suck affection; a sweetheart or lover 4. Tennis a score of zero - vt., vi. to feel love (for) - fall in love (with) to begin to feel love (for) - in love feeling love - make love 1 to woo, embrace, etc. 2 to have sexual intercourse - lov'able or love'able adj. - loveless adj.

MY definition

Love for yourself is when you know that you are imperfectly perfect. Meaning, you know you have your imperfections, but you also know that these imperfections are what make you who you are, and you wouldn't change these imperfections for anyone.

Love for another is when you see someone and know they are perfectly imperfect. This means that you think all of thier imperfections are perfect even if they think otherwise. You would never want this person to change and you really don't notice their imperfections because to you their imperfections are pretty much perfect. In a simple way, to you the sun shines out this persons ass.

When you really love someone you love them for who they are, not what they have. You cherish the small moments that make things perfect, not the flashy moments that cause strife. You never lose faith in the person no matter how much they fuck up. You're willing to throw yourself infront of a bus for this person, take a bullet for them, and be put through hell and back all in one day. You really know, deep deep down, that no one else in this world will ever be right for you no matter how much they may try. When you love someone treat them this way, don't play kindergarten games and act like an ass when you like someone. These apply to both males and females because lets face it, the one person you really love makes your stomach turn and you feel like you're going to puke everytime you see them, but their the one person your willing to feel this way for, so don't let that someone go.

--aliciaa

<3 ??

omg this feeling is driving me crazy. and its even crazier cause we barely know each other, like at all. to bad your in my head all the time. but i know its one of those things that will never get to be more then a crush oh well thats just to bad.
--aliciaa

i need a little good luck to get me by this time

Okay! Let's gather 'round the camp fire and get some things out in the open, shall we? (both things are about different people)

It's not that I'm not happy for you both, because I totally am, let's not forget that. I know what will happen though. It happens everytime. I'll be forgotten. Who needs a best girl-friend when you have a girlfriend, right. You'll only talk to the guys and barely talk to me, which sucks because we really only just got close again. Some may say it's jealousy which it isn't but whatever, let them think that. I'm willing to try if you are though, no not dating, just staying friends. I'm always there but you seem to forget it, and your to egotistical to be told anything negative about you, and really you should totally see when your being a jerk and abandoning someone you call your bestfriend and sister. So I don't know maybe being friends won't workout, but you haven't been together long and it's already happening. I'm not here to tell you to make a choice I'm just here to say don't forget what you have now, what you'll have during and after this realationship, and hopefully you'll think twice about letting that go.

On a brighter note, you make me smile, and keep me lost in thought. To bad you don't know I exist and to bad I would throw up trying to talk to you. It's weird saying I like you when I don't know you, but I have this attraction to you. It's definatley a strange one, like I know it's not just physical, but I can't quite say what else it is. When I see you around other peoplee it really makes me wish that I was one of those girls who could get any guy she wanted, but I'm not changing who I am for you just so we're clear. It drives me crazy knowing that the chances of anything happeneing between us are 1 in 1 000 000 000. I'll get over it though so don't you worry, I just wanted you to know that you make me smile.

--aliciaa

first day back

so it wasnt so bad, kinda boring really. it may have had something to do with the fact that i was up at 5am though. so lets see how it went shall we??

English

so it was chill we did like an "autograph bingo" esque thingy. it was fun. we didnt really do much my teacher seems pretty nice too. we just filled out info and got and assingment thats due on thursday!! =[ first day and already an assingment, woot -_-

History

easy, lets start off by saying i saw someone thought he was cute and new, then realized i knew who he was!! so w/e then the one time we do group work and i dont wanna be in the same group as him i get put in the same group im like WTF are you kidding!! so then we get in our group and the fir alarm goes off and we stood outside til pretty much the end of the period.

Religion

BORING!! MOFO!! holy shit sooooo boring!! my teacher seems like a nutcase too!! hopefully she isnt too bad though but she did give us stupid questions like "what is the meaning of life" well not exactly like tht but very similar like wtf im 15 idk!! but w/e it ended quick cause lunch was inbetween my double period of religion.

LUNCH B

that lunch is deeeeaaaaad like noone hass that lunch its so easy to just chill that way though!! it's quite lovely :p we just ate outside today and walked around

Dance

no dancing today because of a grade 9 assembly but tomorrow we get to start that kinda stuff we just talked and did some group questions but it was alot of fun, and im really looking forward to this class now. we get to choose where we go on our field trip its awsome. seems like it'll be lots of fun :)

so yeha maybe this school year wont be to bad but then again its only been one day and it didnt even feel like a different year. i didnt feel like we were in grade 10 it seemed like it was the same year after a weeks vacation. weird =S

--aliciaa

the signs are here.

My signs that, yes, summer is comming to an end.

• the burning bush outside is turning red, this only happens at the end of summer.
• the lyrics for summer fades to fall by faber drive are making more and more sense
• my neighbour who starts JK tomorrow has been carrying her school stuff around 24/7
• I resent my uniform more then ever
• there's stuff for lunch in the fridge for once
• my neighbour who's a teacher is going back to work
• i resent that my clock says its already noon
• got my hair done for school
• thinking of how my hair / makeup should be done
• struggling to wake up early this past week
• fall clothes are comming out in stores
• i need new warm clothes
• we've looked back at things we didnt get to do this summer and plan to do them next year
• mom and i are arguing more
• my fueding neighbours have stopped feuding
• its not even 9 and it looks like it could be 10

ive watched all the kids on my street grow up so much, samantha starts JK tomorrow. knowing that in some small way i've helped them out makes me want to hold on to summer even more!! im sorry i wont get to see them on there first day back to school. but tomorrow should be an interesting day, summer was well spent and im really sad its over. but if this school year is like last in anyway i hope it goes by just as fast so next summer can happen soon. ive never been this emotional or wanted to cry this much because summer is over. this is the first year i can look back and say i did exciting new trying things, and have helped in some very special and important was, it wouldnt be a lie to say that summer of '09 has simply been a blast and i wish it would last forever. summer '09 will be missed <3

--aliciaa

Time Bomb, Tick Tickin Away

omg so i was woken upo this morning at 6am becasue my pregnant neighbour who is now overdue was having major contractions! :D
so exciting, and im glad i was woken up to go with my mom and stay with her little daughter well her grandmother came.
so now she should be at st. josephs hospital which is where me my mom + dad were all born, which is kinda funny cause she is supposed to be having a boy and today is my dads bday. i find that kool.
any ways my point is im very excited for her but ive noww been up for nearly three hours. ive uploaded all 3 of the cds i got at the concert on my laptop and have listened to 2 of them.
ive been on facebook, twitter, pretty much everything and im boooooored :P
only 3 and a half hours til i go for lunch with the bday boy!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!!
--aliciaa

inSTEAD of holding you i was holding out cause tonight i love you cause your a girl like me!

SO i went to the EX today!!!
lots of fun
BUT on the way to put winnings in the car i hear
CHECK 1 2 CHECK CHECK
needless to say i spent 4 hours at ssoundcheck

FABER DRIVE FIRST!
can i just start off by saying FABER IS A HOTTIE, like H-O-T!
and an awsome singer live.
so they finish their sound check and i see faaber get off so we rush over and he signed my right shoe. he`s super nice.
then we got a picture with the drummer.
AND THEN brandon from the latency comes out and i go to get his autograph.
he iss suuuuuuuuch a sweetheart and talked to ALTHEA on the phone. like he is soooo nice
but he didnt have nething to sign with -_-
so then were walking back to our seats and we see the guitarist from faber drive then we got a picture with him to!

Soo then we see Shiloh and get pictures and she signed my left shoe :)
she seems like major down to earth. she had no way of signing my shoe so she let me put my gross shoes on her. like shes just such a sweetheart. her soundcheck was good to , but she had a cold so her voice was pretty straained.

THHHHEEEN i see brandon out again so i find this poor little girl and steal her marker and paper and get him to sign it. then i see matthew and get a picture with him but he had nothing to sign with. TTTTHHHHHHHHEEEEEEENNNN i see the always lovely ryan stead and hes sooo fuckin gorgeous so i get a picture and im like can you uhh... sign me shoe and he goes *giggle* sure im like gaaaaah you touched my foot :D their soundcheck waas hhaaaaawt

then we`re waiting for the concert to start and i look over and my mom is like staring tis guy down shes all like thats not him it cant be im like uuuh whos not him so shes like tony monaco. so i remember that she went to school with him so just tok make sure its him we search on paulas phone and then were like its him so we force my mom to go talk to him, and he DID rememebr her!!! im like scoooooore!

so the concert starts with the latency. and we all rush to the stage. they were amazing ryan threw his first guitar pick and i get a text from my mom saying it landed at her feet and she has it for me im like SCORE MOTHER FUCKER! so then he blows me and paula a kiss . and when they finished he came on to move something and im like I LOVE YOU RYAN so he looks and is like :D

so then shiloh came on she was sooooo entertaining!!!! like funny and very like energetic. lots of fun.

so theeen faber drive comes on like a half hour later. they were amazing!!! faber again hottie same with j.p. fucking amazing live. they get so into it and like goof around with the crowd i almost caught a drum stick but no such luck oh well. its okay. the when g-get up and dance came on brandon came out and sang to
oh and when the latency were on faber drive got a bunch of ppl on stage with mean signs as a joke on of them was like RYAN IM 6 MONTHS PREGNANT! like just really funny signs.
all in all probably the best line up ive seen.

love them all!!!!!
will blog more tomorrow PEACE!

--aliciaa

me and my gorgeous husband :P

so close

so berna just left and im depressed. but but but latency tomorrow and faber drive and the EX with paula im super duper excited!!!!!! like seriously! :P
its like 1 hour til tomorrow which means 11 hours til we leave YES!
btw boys are silly!
oooooh and and and 3oh!3 = life
im listening to im not your boyrfriend for like the millionth time today
you know i rep this shit
i gots it tatted on my skin
if you fuckin with my city
then you fuckin with my kin

and yes us children learn from cigarette burns fast cars fast womean and cheap drinks!
okay so we dont actually.
omg so i just found out last night that my neighbour who is like 37 likes 3oh!3 and he is now like my hero! :P yes im a loser i no but hey he' awsome. all my neighbours are actually. thats why i now prefer to hang out with 30 year olds rather then ppl my age. cause we can aact my age without the drama!!! :P
okay speaking of wwhich im gunna go outside and hangout with them riiiiiiiight now!!! :)
--aliciaa

hmmm. i can't quite remember

hmmm. so lots has been going on lately.
lets see. when did i last blog wat was it even about i honestly dont even remember.
hold on a second im gunna open a new tab and go to my blog and see.
so i guess well your reading this pause. brb :)
oh yes bloggin about my favourite book series.
its exciting though :D makes me quite thrilled inside.

Since then, I have finished book two, City of Ashes, and have started the third book, City of Glass. So far I find it quite good. Although I'm only on chapter three, but still very good. Still no word though on when Cassandra Clare will be in Tornot doing her book signing. I also got a cold, I went almost 2 full months without being sick, so I guess you could say that my emmune system is getting quite better. Oh and I am over my cold, if you're wondering. Which, if you are, then thank you very much for caring, it's sweet of you. :) I went shopping the first day that my cold really hit me and my mom bought me Ed Hardy hi-tops. I love them, there pink and have fishies on them, AND she also got me a laaptop. Which, obviouslly, I'm on now. I LOVE IT LIKE CRAZY! I saw G.I. Joe yesterday with me mommy and some neighbours. It was just incredible, it also helps that Channing Tatum is gorgeous, Marlon Wayans is hilarious, and they have amazing on screen chemistry. Quite amazing, if you haven't seen it yet I insist that you go and see it right now. Oh and if you happen to be readin this at 3 am then go and see it at the next available show time. SERIOUSLY GO SEE IT! It is already a quarter after two in the morning and I should really be asleep but I just can't get to sleep yet, OH WELL. I'll quickly just tell ya'll what's up over the next couple days and then get a new blog picture, maybe change up the colour scheme too. Tomorrow, well actually later today, is our Cooper St. family BBQ which should be loads of fun, weather permitted. Then on Sunday my mom and I are going to the CNE for the day and then at night we are going to see The Latency and Faber Drive. It should be quite fun. Well I shall go now and fix up my blog. Good night everybody! <3
--aliciaa

:)(L)

AHHH !OMG BEST NEWS EVER!
THE MORTAL INSTRUMENTS HAS...
a fourth book,
a movie,
and
a graphic novel
comming out.
i cannot wait
SUPER EXCITED
and yes that makes me a massive geek :)
jace wyaland = my life *droool*
seriously read the books
--aliciaa

>.<

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FUCK

:)

So, today I am in a very good mood, even though it is boiling outside. I have been out of my house all day, or I was up until about 40 minutes ago. Seeing as I am in such a good mood I figured I would like to say some nice things about people considering the fact that my last blog was rather bitter. I would like to say HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYLOOOOOOOOO to angelina, seeeing as she is stalking my blog! LOOOOVE YOU ! <3 Also Althea you make me smile, and giggle like a 5 year old. Your altered songs are the shit and I am not worthy! Musical genius right there ladies and gents! I lovers you too! <3
I have been in sucha good mood the past like two days because I found out that my favourite author will be in Toronto for a book signing. I cannot wait! Her books are just incredible! So I guess I will say bye for now. Maybe I'll blog again later tonight.
--aliciaa

booooooo this!

Can I say something? Like really say something. Something that I haven't ever really told anyone? Is that okay? Cool, here it goes.
I hate being a teenager. Sorry hate is a very strong word.
I strongly dislike it.
I strongly dislike not knowing who my friends are.
I strongly dislike drama.
I strongly dislike mixed emotions.
I strongly dislike bad influences.
I strongly dislike not knowing what to say.
I strongly dislike when people back stab me.
I strongly dislike how stupid boys can be.
I strongly dislike how girls can be so catty.
I strongly dislike attitude changes.
I strongly dislike not knowing what I like.
I strongly dislike knowing what I like but not being able to obtain it.
I strongly dislike knothat what I want to obtain isn't real.
I strongly dislike not knowing who I am.
and yes sometimes
I strongly dislike myself.
All and all being a teenager has some serious downfalls. Although I don't want to grow up either, or act like I'm a 5 year old. I just want to know that everything will be alright, that things will get better, and that I won't be confused for my entire life. I just want to know! Is that to much to ask? I'm almost afraid of going back to school. I don't want to have all those negative influences around me, I'm not even sure that I want positive influences around me. I just don't want any help with this I guess. I do, but I don't. I need to be able to become my own person on my own, but I know that to shpe myself into something I need to have friends and family around me to help. It just bugs me. I guess I'm finally an angst ridden teen.
I strongly dislike being 15.
--aliciaa

Florida ' 09 <3

SO MUCH FUN
this is exactly what i wrote well i was there. yes very sad tht i brought a jounal :P

Florida Day 1
OKay so we got here @ like 6 and by the time we checked in it was 7:30
pathetic how long it took eh?
we ended up just going swimming in the most bomb pool at the resort
it has a water fall and a slide its awsome
after we came in we didnt do to much we chilled and then watched borat xD
then ya we went to sleep DUH. i know its florida but ya gotta sleep sometime.

Florida Day 2
So we slept in til about 9am then went swimming at about 10. same pool so far we havent checked out ne other pools =P After that we went to Downtown Disney =D =D
W to Wolf Gang Pucks for lunch at Disney. I had Chicken fingers and veggies *yuuuummy*
once lunch was over i went on a freakin hot air balloon with brooke. it was incredible. it was the most amazing thing i had done up til that point in my life. i could not believe it!!! We looked around at stuff but i didnt buy nething we came back and went swimming again... OF COURSE!

Florida Day 3
OMG! BEST DAY YET!!!!
So woke up early and got outta bed at 9. all this because... we had breakfast with 3 disney charcters! (i am such a little kid) It was WILD, we saw Minnie+Goofy+Donald. I got pictures with all 3! Let's not even get me started on the food, it was amazing like i dont even remember the last time when i wanted to just keep eating! we drove around looking for malls cause it was pissing rain!! I got a 3oh!3 shirt, which at the time i wrote this i was wearing! I had SO MUCH TROUBLE getting money out but thats all solved now, thank BABY JESUS! we came home and relaxed cause we were damp and it was pretty gloomy outside! We had pasta for dinner and obviously went swimming for like 2 hours then we came up watched SHARKBOY(taylor lautner) and lavagirl, man i love him! then i showered. universal tomorrow??

Florida Day 4
Holy Crap. today turned out better then ne of us would have ever expected. we spent like 3 almost 4 hours arguing bout what to do. we didnt get to go to universal today. cause it was supposed to rain. so finally me kristen brooke + angie went to typhoon lagoon it was LIVE! we went on so many water slides, like pretty much all of them. and and and...SNORKLING with tropical fishies, sting rays, leopard sharks + hammer head sharks. SO MUCH FUN. I went 2 times it was one of the most amazing things ever. and omg the wave pool there was amazing! instead of like a few okat waves it was one MASSIVE wave so kool, like you could surf on it. well your not allowed to but its big enough. when we got back we had dinner at the country club @ the resort. then swimming. These 2 major cute boys were staring i kinda wanted to talk to them but im to chicken shit OH WELL, trust me i made myself noticed ;)
but after they left tese 2 rocker guys walked in ...HAAAAWT! HOOOOOO SWEET JESUS! Came up to the room and chillaxed! universal tomorrow...finally!

Florida Day 5
So we went to universal(ioa) today! sooooo much fun. i spent like the entire time between seuss landing, jurassic park and toon lagoon. we went to some random restaurant 4 lunch, and i had chicken quessidilla!( i just killed the spelling of tht word) it was yummy =) *drool* then we went back to the park. and got totally soaked on this one ride it was so kool. for dinner we went to margaritaville, just like the last time we went to florida. i had a salad for dinner, oh yummy. then these "pirates" on stilts came out. They played margaritaville and me brooke and angie went up and danced sa, so bomb. This pirate came and made us balloon hats! i told him to surprise me. then he was like well you strick me as the diva of this table ( love his sarcasm) cuz then he made me the rolling stones mouth logo thingy. i freaked it was awsome! we went back to the park went on like 3 rides and left. we came home then i showered now i sleep. tomorrow DAYTONA BEACH! *wooooot*

Florida Day 6
so we went to daytona beach and it was hotand by it (im sure i speak for kristen to) i mean fegaurd, he didnt lokk older then like 17.
but seriously it was boiling outside. and the ver yummy (-_-) salt water was cool and refreshing. i helped katelynn pick seashells outta the sand. then me brooke and angie went on a banana boat. it was wicked kool. me + angie fell off twice then angie fell of by herself. it was hilarious. Brooke never fell off though. to bad cuz falling off was alot of fun. me + kristen jumped some waves and then left. good timing cuz about 20 minutes later it started pissing rain. so we stayed at the hotel and made pizza. we got NO sleep i guess we were just really hyper it was just retarted but super funny.

Florida Day 7 (last day)
today was pretty chill. slept in then went swimming. we went to only the one pool the whole trip. then we went to all the cute little souvenir shops. THEN THEN THEN we went to the clubhouse to have steak. i didnt now i steak could taste so good. i also didnt know that i could eat a 6oz. steak a baked potatoe 2 cokes and half a shirley temple and still be starving. after dinner we went to downtown disney again. the huge disney store was packed cuz it was raining. like it was just a disaster. i got my mom a blue mickey mouse necklace. and dad a pirates of the carribean berr mug. oh btw i got katie betty boop shot glasses at universal :P they were really cute. after we went to the disney christmas storeand i bought kristen her birthday present. a nightmare b4 Christmas book. she poened it as soon as we got home. i got myself matching tinkerbell birthstone earrings and necklace. which i wore everyday. back to the hotel and then we left.

it was just a thrill ride of a vaction. on the way home we stopped in washington dc for about an hour, we saw the washington monument the lincoln memorial and the white house. and when we past the white house cars were comming out. so just so we felt good we said it was obama but we had no idea who was inside :)
i got home at 3 am. and then my dad picked me up at about 6 45 to go on a roadtrip, thats a whole other adventure tht ur just gunna have to wait to hear cuz my fingers hurt from typing :P
memberal quotes:P
is that obama?! naw man its lincoln :S
dumfires+manASSas
--aliciaa

i blog

so obviously im running out of blog title name thingys!
im with kristen! the love of my life!
aka my cousin aka my sister aka bella swan aka BIGGEST DORK EVER!
sooo what did we do today?!?!?!
we went to the movies and saw harry potter!
i no i no harry potter OMG!
but really i think we had more fun watching previews, it seems to always work out that way though.
so new moon OMG JACOB BLACK aka TAYLOR LAUTNER aka UBER HOTTY BOMB aka THE REAL LOVE OF MY LIFE aka MMMMMMMMMMM aka okay i guess ill stop now :D
well it was on kristen nearly tore my arm off, luckily its still attached!
BUT HE"S HOT
she says i grabbed at her arm to, but it definatley wasnt as hard, and i DEFINATLY did NOT start hyperventalating!
THEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN
the percy jackson trailer came on, and i nearly died!...INSIDE! as kristen corrects me!
two words ladies and gents.... well actually ladies because well im pretty sure no guys read my blog, so ya two words, LOGAN LERMAN!
DAYYYYYUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUMMMMM!
he's yummy! and well yeah dayum :D:D:D:D
uhh yeah, caaant wait for either movie! not gunna lie i think im more excited about the percy jackson movie! i no i no it sounds wild! most girls would be all like EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPP NEW MOON, EDWARD CULLEN, JACOB BLACK!
and lets not get me wrong i do enjoy staring at jacob black, but still like i read the twilight saga and the percy jackson one and i just fell in love with the percy jackson ones.
SO KIILL ME!
we had a sleep over yesterday, and started watching peter pan and then didnt finish which is kool. w/e CAUSE, i watched the disney one on friday and the live action one yesterday before i came :) yay JEREMY SUMPTER! he's pretty too! Kristen is annoyed with my blogging, so i guess ill say bye!
ps. FLORIDA IN ...4DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYS
--aliciaa

.....!!?!??!?!?!?!

5 days til florida bitcheessss!
i cant wait anylonger, like serously wanna be there now.
the weather here is pretty shit, and i just wanna go chill in the heat with some boys with beach body's! is that to much to ask??? honestly?!
uughhh
im in tornot i was supposed to go to the mall b4 we came but mom forgot
what a ditz
her age is startin to show with her memory -_-
OH WELL...NAWT!
gaaah, so hopefully tomorrow i can go to the mall with my cousin.
except than i gotta pay for my shit, GRRR
stupid half ass memory.
FUCCK
SO BORED
--aliciaa

ooooopsy daisy

ooooops tht blog from earlier today i made a mistake and really this countdown is just so i remember :P
its supposed to be 16days and 26 days not 17 and 27 :P

RIP MJ

watching the memorial service on much, my tooth is fraking killllling me, there was like a half hour of silence there cuz of like technical problems :S
Florida in 17days
Roadtrip in 27days

yay it's summeeer

New Picture! What do ya think?
I like it, I thought it was cool.
Florida in 18days
Roadtrip in 19days
I'm watching Spongebob, I know I am just SO cool. :P
Summer is kind of boring at the moment.
Report card pick up tomorrow. Not going to lie, I'm nervous.
I really hope I didn't fail anything...
Shopping and hanging out tomorrow as well. :)
Hanging out with Kayla again... gosh I hate her. JOKING!!!!
Kayla is like the love of my life, and I don't know how I got through last summer with out her. And I have no clue how I'll get through this summer without her. She'll be in Portugal and I'll be in the USA. SO far apart. I'll miss her.
Daddy is taking me shopping tomorrow for summer clothes, I really only have like 3 pairs of shorts that fit, and a couple of shirts... so obviously shopping in a must!
I should go do something productive with my day now so bye!
--aliciaa

i'm so exciteeed!

Florida in 19days
Roadtrip in 29days
cant wait.
--aliciaa

move it to the south, FLORIDA

So this summer I have yet to sleep in. Honestly I have been awake before 9 o'clock everyday.
I ss it isnso bad though. I've been babysitting alot, earning cash for trips. My best friend so far is the pizza delivery guy, twice in one week. I tip him well. :)

I finally have my trips all planned out, so I'm happy about that. Florida in 20 days with Kristen! I am SO stoked, like you cannot even begin to understand. Disney again, hopefully, last time I nearly peed my pants going to Disney, I was just that excited. ANd the place we stay is sooooo close to Disney and Universal. Just thinking about all of this is making me go insane. AND AND AND Jamal is going to Florida the same day so I don't know, maybe we'll see each other there, that would be wild!!! Then when I come home I'll only be here for one full day. Then I go roadtripping with my dad and sister, Ottawa, Philidelphia, then NYC!!!!!! Im still more excited about Florida though. I get home just in time. The only thing that sucks is that I won't be going on vacation with my mom. I was supposed to go to Collingwood with her but it's the same days that I will be in Florida, I'm sure we'll do something though...

I don't think I will be going to any concerts this summer though, very upsetting. :( I really shouldn't complain to much though seeing as I'm going on trips, right?? There were definatley a couple concerts I want to go to though, and no Stratford fest. Oh well next year.

So me and Kristen went to Wild Water Kingdom the other weekend and this really cute life guard was majorly flirting with us, he was kind fo a goof though, what ever! At this point in time no body comparers to certain people.

My back is killing me. I woke up at like 8:55am but didn't get out of bed until just after 10am. My back was fine well I was lying down, but now it seriously hurts!!! I'm gunna go eat now though.... nevermind, I want lunch but it's only 10:30 but I'm going anyways.

--aliciaa

FUCK YOU

mmva day

yah im bummed i dont get to go, but oh well.
i can go next year right?
i hope rania is having a good time tho :)
its fathers day im in toronto visiting my nonno.
im bored :P
wild water kindom next weekend with kristen, just got my new bathing suit :)
last exam on tuesday then summer officially starts.
i guess ill blog later when something eventful happens .
--aliciaa

almost done!!

so today was my french exam i think i did okay.
after the exam i met up with vanessa, inga, berna, and blade at starbucks.
we chilled well i waited 4 kaylaa.
then me kayla and inga went to empire wok to get chicken bawlzzz
they was yummy.
then the 3 of us slowly made our way to the dollar store and hung out there for a while.
after we started a looong hooooot walk back to kaylas house.
we chilled more it was alot of fun. but we had to leave to get ingas brother.
on the way back to kaylas we saw some hotties
boys who are built nice and dont wear shirts make us happy :)
hahaha "i think i wet myself a little :$"
he was pretty, then there were hot construction workers..
we chilled at the park then me and inga left.
i walked her home and on my way home saw some grade 8's and i walked with them until we were at my street. i went home and my dad picked me up to go bowling 4 daddys day.
it was fun. he kicked my ass. -_-
then i cam home and now im ubbber bored. and its almost 11 so no one will be able to hang out....
on the bright side i went a full day without seeing you, and i have to say i think ill make it through the summer even i f i dont see you.
oh well im sure there will be other guys.
this summer will most likely be the summer of no hook ups.
chances of 'us' is like 1 in a million!
and im not to interested in anyone else.
but if summer love comes along ill take my chances.
until then ill be watching anything and everything that has taylor lautner in it.
yes thats right taylor lautner will be my summer hook up :P
so my last exam = english.
which im not to worried about, in fact im not worried at all.
wow grade 9 is almost done.
NO MORE BEING A NINER!
not that i was bothered with that. looking back i didnt do shit
i was always sick and never really got invited anywhere.
oh well next year is sure to be fun, although i dont wanna go back to my current skool.
i dont no what im gunna do all summer.
i guess like what, beach, pool, hang outs, chicken bawlzzz, party, sleepovers, staying up late.
nothing really fantstical. but i refuse to be bummed already, summer hasnt even started, i hope its half as good as last summer. that was amazing.
it was a summer of firsts.
first boyriend
first boat sleep
first real dance in the rain
first kiss
... wow you kinda stole some important firsts from me bud.
but not the most important :)
you were kinda a mistake. i guess i got you outta my system now, and i learned quick that douches like you are not for me.
although knowing myself ill end up with other douches.
oh well thats what growing up is out right?
im watching cheaper by the dozen 2!
like i said ANYTHING with taylor lautner! <3
to bad im missing him at the mmva's.
i really wanted to go but im not allowed -_-
oh well maybe next year...?
i have first aid/cpr training tomorrow.
im oh so stoked ...NAWT!
its good to know that stuff but i dont wanna waste my saturday learning it, oh well.
at least its this saturday and not like the first weekend of summer vacation.
i think i need a new bathing suit. considering the fact i can only find half -_-
ill get mommy to buy it. ill go with some friends or something.
hopefully, we can have hangouts soon.
so here are some absolute depressions about the summer
#1...KAYLA!
is going to portugal to hook up with hawties and im staying here with lovely boys from milton , wooo <---sarcastic
ill miss her like crazy and ill have to update her on my non-existent love life, and she'll update me on the hawties in portugal. im sure she'll have fun cuz if she doesnt ill have to kick her bumm
#2...INGA!
is going to Poland! although i dont no how long but ill miss her to.
especially considereing the facts tht she has my llama baby inside her.
heres a little something for the mother of my llama.
"happy llama, sad llama, mentally retarted llama, super llama, drama llama, big fat mama llama, CAMEL!" teehee, oh you know you love that!
i love you both and ill miss you well your gone, OH HOW WILL I SURVIVE! ='(
have fun well i sit around on my ass! im supposed to be going to philly, ottawa and new york, although im not really looking forawrd to it as much as i though i would be. oh well. w/e
well this is really turning out to be quite a long entry, well longer then i expected it to be.
im like tired and i dont no why. to much sun maybe?
AHH HLY CRAP no lie i literally just remembered tht im going to wild water kingdom next weekend, so i gotta get a bathing soon FAST!
hmm. it'll have to be during the week i guess cuz i cant this weekend.
i'll have to find someone to come with me.
maybe a boy , a certain boy, and kayla i no ur so reading this and i know what ur thinking ;P
and i love you, alot more then i love *oops correction* like him!
ooo i got a new camera.
it was supposed to be my Christmas gift but i got it early.
its kinda a long story but the important part is tht i now have a camera to use this summer.
pool on monday or tuesday possibly.
AHH tuesday at 10 15 am my summer officially starts! soooooooSTOKED!
i guess ill stop writing now, although ill probably remember something and blog again later.
byyyyye, good night <3
eww i smell skunk or maybe its a cigar now tht i can smell it stronger :S
--aliciaa

1 exam down

So I just wanted to let you know that you made concentrating on my exam super hard.
I though you were gunna miss it apparently not.
And now I miss you.
--aliciaa

the sky is blue because the grass called being green :)

i know i wrote a blog like 7 hours ago but i seriously cant get you outta my head!
its driving me mad but i cant say i dont enjoy it.
its nice to know that when things are difficult i can think of you and my mood will change
but right now i need to study for my exam and i cant cuz yor just stuck in my head , like peanut butter stuck to the roof of my mouth !!!!!!
i dont even wanna think about my exam tomorrow, not because im worried about it, just that u'll be there which means ur all ill think about.
i wish i could just tell u
i wish you felt the same
i wish i knew what was going on with me
i wish i had an anaswer to all this
i wish you were here to tell me everything will be okay.
but then again why should i get what i wish for , for once right?
i dont even think i deserve to feel this way, but i cant ignore it nemore
i guess ill see you tomorrow, chances of us talking 1 in 10 ... actually the chance are worse
ill probably wake up in the middle of the night cuz of you. this wouldnt be the first time either. i just have tht feeling. the sooner i fall asleep the sooner i can see u in my dreams.
ily....i think.... and the l means like not love btw
so yes for now ilikeyou
goodnight :)
--aliciaa

confused? ...no im not.. no wait i am... i think ...AHHH ='(

Okay so you confuse me, my heart, my feelings, my head, my sanity.
I promised myself no boy drama this summer, it would either happen or it wouldn't but I wouldn't stress over it. I guess it's to late now. So many things about you drive me wild, in a good way though. Your cute, funny, kind, and a hockey player to boot. But then there are times that make me go insane and I just want to shoot someone! The thing is that I can't even put a finger on what bugs me, like i can't say what it is. So maybe it's just in my head, but maybe it's not. I just don't know. I wouldn't be sweating this if there was no chance that I did like you. It feels like I haven't been this confused since about a year ago, when I realized I liked my ex during the summer. If this turns out the way things did last time i just ask you one thing, okay? Don't turn out to be like him, PLEASE! Don't be an ass and don't disappoint, because here is a little secret hun... I'm rooting for you. You have me convinced that maybe not every guy in Milton is a douche. You have me convinced that maybe everything in my head could workout for once. So please don't disappoint.

On another note, exams are this week. I have Geography tomorrow and French on Friday. Monday is a free day, no exam! Unfortunatley, on Tuesday I have English. Although after that it's summer vacation, so I guess everything isn't so bad. It'll be nice to have time to just hang out with people and not worry about school work. I hope it's as fun as last summer was, but I guess I can only hope.

Wow, I'm kind of starting to depress myself with this blog entry. All I wanted to do was say what I had to about him and now I'm all depressed. I'm going to go now and try to make myself all happy again because I have to babysit and I don't want to bum the kids out!

--aliciaa

PITTSBURGH PENGUINS

OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PITTSBURGH WON! CHAMPS FINALLY!!!
Malkin - PLAYOFF MVP
Crosby - YOUNGEST CAPTAIN TO HOIST THE CUP
im really so stoked right now you cant even believe
im making so many spelling mistakes and i have to fix them cuz my hands are like on crack right now and i just wanna screeaaam!
however i had my athletic banquet and im overly excited so im tired and i wanna spend my happiest moment of today with my mom and not a computer so ill write more tomorrow
PEAAAAAAAAAAACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
--aliciaa

looking so so ...?

so it was dexter at the lady's house
unfortunatley he got out on her to
so my baby is still on the lose.
i miss him like crazzzzzzzzy! :'(
i really want him home.
hopefully soon!
i just wanna be able to hug him and cuddle him again!
maybe somone will find him today then again maybe not
i love my kitty and not knowing where he is kills me :(
at least im pretty sure he is in the neighbourhood.
which is good to know. thanks to everyone who is looking :)
--aliciaa

things looking up...?

so last nightwas rea difficult for me.
the thunder and lightning are usually okay with me .
infact i love them.
but knowing my kitty was out in that scared the life outta me.
luckily someone found a cat. and im hoping tht its mine.
im going later to check. ill try not to get my hopes up but its just so hard right now!
i need to calm down love u all for trying. i know my friends are there for me when im this upset
--aliciaa

day 2

he's still missing.
i really miss my kitty.
if you think you have seen him PLEASE PLEASE tell me.
im really upset and i can only hope that he can find his way home
or that someone will find him and return him back to me.

have some news

so to those of you who read my blog. i actually no you!
and some of you live pretty darn close so im writing this to ask for your help
i lost my cat his name is dexter if u find him pleeeease contact me!
at skool or w/e even if u just comment on this blog
it would mean soooo much

again its happened

so lets get one thing straight.
i make plans and im good at making them work.
i hate when ppl change plans without telling me
or when ppl change plans last minute.
its annoying.
so no you 2 can fuckin get ready together and find your own fuckin way to the party.
dont fucking change my plans on me.
you know i dont even like being around you 2 at the same time so why would i want both of you cramped in my bathroom with me.
it was all planned and now you screwed me over -_-
oh and what happened to "i see where your comming from and she does bring out the worst in me i dont wanna talk to her nemore"
please dont run your mouth like some big shot and then do the total opposite its annoying as all fuck!
im just sick and tired of you 2. i cant hang out with both of u together.
not alone ne ways. its to much anxiety!

on a bright note. i helped my neighbours with their garage sale.
i got 2 care bears and some t-shirts tht i'll probably end up tie dying.
party later im excited.
im gunna go eat now tho
--aliciaa

holy crap.

omg so today i went to the skatepark with paula
it was a waste of time.
there were no hot guys.
we went to pizza nova.
went back to skatepark and still no boys.
it was boring. but still fun
so on the way there we took a short cut which was fine
this cat followed us it was cute and i wanted to take it home.
on the way back tho we took a shortcut again but starting from a different place. so it was a bit longer short cut.
so it was a street behind thompson.
so if u live in milton and know this area it was where the like places to sell houses are. behind those like wood signs and random houses.
ya know what i mean?
so were walking behind there and i hear a car i lok behind and see a car with guys so automatically im creeped. i look to my right and see there is space to cut across the parking lot back to thompson.
but i didnt go cuz there was nothing going wrong so we kept walking.
then the guys yelled. i look to my right but now were behind the sign and i started walking faster.
then i hear paula go "OH SHIT there getting outta there car!" and there was a little area to get back to thompson but theres a puddle. i go neways.
and get mud all over my new shoes and jeans. muddy water half way up my calf.
i was so scared that on the way home well she made jokes i was like please stfu
so i came home and was so scared and shit that i cried.
its was definatly the worst time ever, im still scared shitless and feel like crying

=^.^=

my throat still hurts. skool on monday again. kinda a bittersweet reward.
happy to be semi healthy again but who wants to go to skool .
oh well its almost summer vacation and im excited about that.
unfortunatley when summer comes miss kayla is going to portugal
ill miss her but @ least she'll be doing something fun!
im really bored. ive officially seen every episode of clone high more then you can count in like 3 days.
i got new jeans yesterday. size 3 now. i got jeans like 1 month and a half ago. they were a size one.
those dont refit in the crotch area nemore.
in a month and a half ive gone up 3 fucking sizes waist wise. a sure sign i need to exercise and eat healthier.
redoing room soon. which means ill have 2 room sin one house. so many different tings tht i have to decorate now. im not really looking forward to it.
i need new summer clothes , cuz nothing fits. how upsetting.
this blog is kinda becoming a tribute to everything wrong in my life.
like each one is just me ranting on & on & on. so to ppl who read this im sorry that u have to hear about my issues.
i watched clone high. and juno today. now im watching the simpsons.
there is nothing to do @ home.
and no one to hang out with.
sad.
literally im so bored right now that there really isnt anything for me to write now.
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k bye
--aliciaa

soo...

archie proposes to veronica in the 600th issue of archie comics comming this fall. although its sad

stereos is oneof my new favourite bands. ive declared them my summer '09 band. officially.

i got the latency's ep. there also my other summer '09 band.

music is getting good again.

i bough tclone high on dvd. whoopee.

jay leno is finishing his last show right now. oh how sad. no seriously its upsetting.

my throat hurts.

turns out i have the normal flu.

i may have to get my tonsils removed. oh what fun.

i think i may buy an archie comic tomorrow.

all of the above are basically like tweets. as is this one

--aliciaa

extremly .... mixed emotions

so let's just stick to one. for now at least.
im completley and utterly over joyed becasue i have my best friend back!
we havent talked since first semester.
it was my call but i dont even remember why i stopped talking to him.
its nice to know that even after all this time i cna tell him pretty much everything!
and trust that he wont go and blab to the whole world.
as i type this im talking to him which explains y i may be oh so happy :D
now people in cyber space please dont get me wrong about this
i love him but not that way.
been there done that!
not that we ever went out or nething i just used to really like him as in like crush
but that stopped quitesome time ago
he's like my brother now , well again so its just really good to have him around again

lets think why else am i oh so happy?
oh ya i got Green Day's new cd!
its BOMB like seriously if you have money on you now go and buy it!!!
BILLIE JOE ARMSTRONG is my life. he is so bomb.
i love his hair
i love his voice
MIKE DIRNT he seems so chill
again he has good hair to!
TRE COOL there is a reason for his name
he is tre cool.
that was a bit cheesy wasnt it? yes i thought so
i watched the hooking up with GREEN DAy on mm and
he seemed nice
he seemed funny
he seemed chill
he seemed interesting
and although i dont no him im very convinced that he is all those things
i hope that i get to see them in concert!

tomorrow babysitting cubed that is right ladies and gents
3 different babysitting gigs.
3 different places.
3 different times.
its kool tho the kids are all sweethearts and are usually pretty easy to take caare of

well its .. HOLY CRAP MIDNIGHT :S
i need to be up soon and i really wanna read so ya ending this blog shorter then i wanted to
good night my lovley blog readers.
sweet dreams
--aliciaa

what could this mean??

so i had this dream that i have to get off my chest.
theres 3 guys and for my own humiliation code names shall be used.
so i guess theres bill ted and tom . kool names eh?
well reading please keep in mind that i don't really talk to any of these guys.

so i was sitting at a lunch table with bill when tom came up and started talking about likeing someone. he went into dramatic detail and it was really sweet. then he stared at me and me and bill looked at each other, thinking that tom liked me. i turned to him and said "oh wow uhmm i..."
then tom cut me off. " no i dont like you. i was told to tell you that by someone."
"well who told you to say that ?" i said.
all tom did was look behind me and i knew whoever he was, was standing behind me.
i turned around to see ted standing there. and even unconscience i was confused. ted seemed pretty close to perfect. and although we dont talk much it seemed like we had some things in common.
so ted pulled up a chair next to me and sat down. he had pretty much said wat tom said but it seemed much more sincere about his words. he paused took a breath a looked back at me.
"so what do ya say? will you go out with me?"
i froze for a split second and responded, " uhh sure"
i could tell that i had the goofiest smile on my face.
he gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek.
then me being the brilliant person i am looked up and said " you know you are really tall."

then i woke up in a confused state. and fell back asleep.
this is when part 2 of the dream started it was very short.
2 new ppl in this dream. 2 being girls. we'll call them, gerogie and maddie.

so i was sitting in a computer lab with georgie and maddie.
our seating looked like this.
georgie. me. maddie.
so ted walked into the computer lab and maddie looked up at him then back at me grinning.
"well" said maddie. " i suppose i should get up for him"
when georgie responded in such an arrogant tone.
"he could always come and sit next to me." she said, her eyelashes bating.
all that passed through my mind was. hello he's my boyfriend! back the fuck off!!!!
being the kind of guy he is, he never fell for it.
maddie got up and let ted sit down next to me.
it was a perfect moment. he gave me a gentle kiss and then i just rested in his arms.
and then i woke up.

i thought about all that and was soooooo confused
maybe a like him and maybe a odnt.
i guess if i had to decide at this moment i would say yes i have a little crush on him.
so whjatever i unno.
i got partty plans to fix up so
peace!!!!!
--aliciaa

mmm black licorice

soo i totally creeped ur profile...
cuz im to scared to talk to you.
and i must say from what i saw...
ur perfect.
everything about you is everything tht i want right now.
in my mind everything works out perfectly between us.
although i no tht its just my imagination running wild on me.
nothing could ever be that perfect.
except you.
i barely no you and i could still gush about you for the longest time <3
i just wouldnt no where to start,
ur looks?
mmm your eyes . they make me melt.
music taste?
seems extremly amazing.
gosh my heart is already going insane just thinking about ur perfection
to bad that im to scared to even say hi,
cuz without that im pretty much screwed

just a bunch of jumbled thoughts

so today i am sick :(
...again
yesterday i moved my sister into her new house and it was raining.
so i was in and out of the rain yesterday hence my cold .
shes commin home today and im excited.
kiki is getting her tattoo tomorrow. and i get to go.
cuz im paying. its her bday present. so w/e
im excited x)
cuz u no i would be excited bout that :P
im feeling a bit better. had a cough yesterday.
not to bad now. kinda stuffed tho, my nose i mean.
head's a little mixed right now to.
hopefully ill be able to hand out this weekend *fingerscrossed*

missed skool quite a bit this week. and i jst wanted to let u no that i missed u.
not that u woulda noticed if i was there or not.
and that kills me inside , but oh well. thats nothing new to me.
guess it doesnt matter, im pretty smart, smart enough to no it will never work out between us.
which sux , oh well ill live. just no tht for now ur always in my mind.

so i found out that my mom is going to vegas.
well i already new that but during tht weekend im staying with my sister :)
im excited. that means i wont have to be with my dad , and it , i refuse to refer to her as anthing but it . but ya im excited.

oooo so got summer plans alreaddy , im SO excited x)
like u cant even begin to understand :D
- stratford festival
.macbeth, june 28th
.a midsummer nights dream, august 9th
-def leappard with poison, cheap trick
.june 4th, (hopefully)
-road trip with my sis and dad, in the states :)
-and possibly mini road trip with mom and sis to ottawa and then quebec.
IM EXCITED , i htink i mentioned tht already tho x)
i mean rly all i have to say is POISON --bret michaels!
uber duber excited x)
yes im such a dork

drum lessons starting soon, hopefully, well as soon as my rents get off their bums and sign me up -_- seriously ive been waiting for an uber long time and they havent done anything . GRRRR
im el uber bored :( and lonley. GOSH i hate being sick :(
there isnt nething to say now :(
okie bye
--aliciaa

alot to say, with so few words

ahhh semi was freaking amazing!!!!

danced all night and had so much fun!

took some pics, and met some ppl

there isnt much to say , it was a dance, everyone looked rly good,

but thts bout all there is to say :P

someone :S, ania, inga, paula, me, berna

steffan, me, thomas

so the day after semi i went to ottawa to bisit my aunt and uncle and cousins

so i got there on friday, and me, my mom and my aunt sat outside cuz it was boiling!!!

we had sausages for dinner and it was delish

saturday we all went to see 17 again, it was amazing i totally love zac efron again, if u havent seen it get off ur computer and watch it now!

i honestly think i may see it again its just tht good

sunday we came home and they were bringin back the latest dead soldier, we took pics :S

a little weird i no, but it was so interesting and sad of course

unfortunatley i havent uploaded the pics yet so they wont be on this blog, ill put them on another tho

so theres this boy, and no it's not the same one i wrote about before.

he's perfect in so many ways that even his imperfections are perfect.

he's everything i think is amazing rolled into one which makes me so happy.

it also makes me nervous as all living hell! we dont talk much but when we do i wish it would last longer. geez it's always the same with me. guy tht seems perfect but i have no chance with. or 'perfect' guy who turns out to be a dick and a half, and trust me i no more then enough ppl like that it just gets annoying after a while !

hmm gotta get this out so here's a little letter.

dear dickwad

i dont get why you cant leave me alone. i thought i made it clear that i dont wanna deal with u and ur rude ways. talking bout ppl behind their backs, excesivly! i told u not to do it around me but you couldn't deal with a simple request, and tht was when we were friends to. then u made fun of a guy who's practically my little brother, that is where i draw the line, i told u off and we didnt talk all summer, those were the good days. we had a class together first semester, forced environments make it hard to keep ur mouth shut , i get it. we started talking again but things were different, u were different, or maybe i had just grown up. you still annoyed me, and made fun of me, you were just rude. i re-read our fight and told u i was done , it wouldnt work and i never wanted to talk to you again. surprisingly you listened...for a while anyways. u started to get in my face saying hi, especially when it looked like i was already in a bad mood. u stopped for a couple of weeks. now everytime i pass you just laugh ,HAHAHA, maybe its an imiitation of my laugh i dont no. it doesnt rly bug me it makes me feel sorry for you, the fact that you have to be a dick to someone is pretty pathetic. i dont no wat it is, maybe you cant handle the fact thatsomeone doesnt like you. no that isnt it. ur ego is bruised that's all, u can except when someone doesnt like you but if that person is a girl, it jusut drives you crazy doesnt it? yup thats it.

finally a girl has shown you that ur not as hot as you think you are.

finally a girl has shown you that not everyone wants in ur pants.

finally a girl has shown you that maybe you need to change.

finally a girl has shown you that ppl dont actually think ur amazing.

finally a girl has given u reason to change.

but i guess you're to blind to see that, or to arrogant maybe.

ur one of those ppl that thinks nothing is kool if you dont like it. let ppl dress or act like they want to, who are you to control urself. frankly it makes you seem afraid.

afraid that your not kool

afraid that your not confident

afraid that your not everything you can be

all i haev to say is what you do makes u a rude jerk, a menipulative jackass, a condisending dipshit and oh so much more. just leave me alone cuz im not gunna crack.

and to think we used to be friends,

no not friends,

best friends,

no not best friends,

practically family.

i guess you crossed the line or i matured either way it will never go back to being the same so dont waste your breath on me , dont waste your breath on someone who doesn't care if you're there or not.

the end jackass

your ex- best friend.

wow that makes me feel better, alot off of my shoulders, i may have to give that letter to a certain someone. i feel alot better woot woot!

today is 31 cent day apparently and my bffl will be here in a half hour to pick me up so we can get ice cream :D im excited! this shall be fun. my mother doesnt feel well and i dont wanna be near her , i dont wana make her feel worse.

i guess ill go now, maybe there will be something to write later.

--aliciaa

avec my baby

so im with kathleen and her puppy.. we hung out right after skool and were still together now :)
her puupppyy is such a cutie and im in love with him. he walked over the keyboard and we thought he busted the comp. obviously he didnt cuz im typing now. i believe my mom is here so ill blog more when i get home
say groovy like the disco balls, eww yuppies
--alicia

in business

kay so im in business and i have 5 minutes left of class.
no lunch today got work to do :(
semi tomorrow
ottawa the day after that
so excited cant wait
seriously im just this bored right now
kk late
--aliciaa

Three babies in the backseat singin' to you, hey Dj won't you play that song for me

so theres this boy, and lets just say that he's held my heart for quite sometime now.

in a story like this the plot usualy goes one fo 2 ways.

way 1. the girl loves the boy and he doesnt even no she exists

way 2. the girl and the boy are best friends and they both secretly lik eachother

in my story the plot is neither of these.

he's my best friend, and ive liked him for a while. he always says tht im his best friend to , which ya i guess that's all right.

he's dating someone which kills me inside, not that there is anything i can do.
apparently if he werent dating anyone he would ask me out, apparently he would also ask someone else out.

im so sick of this happening to me. isnt it mytime yet to actually have someone like me?

guess not eh.
people tell me to move on, its not that simple , i no we have tht connection , i've been told it multiple times by different ppl, and for once i see it for myself, maybe thats why it kills me or why i cant just walk away.

o well just no ily <3

on a brighter note, this week has been pretty ok, well not this week but the past week.

i chilled wiht my bffl paola wysocki

yes shes half italian half japanese all polish. its y i love her deep deep down

lets just say we had a wild night of picture taking a day of bowling and a sleepover full of laughs after a difficult day.

pictures were amazing, she hates taking her picture and ive only just started to like getting mine taken, needless to say they turned out pretty funny,

tell me something tho, u lovley internet blog readers.

if u were a janitor would u yell at kids climbing a fence or a School Bus, yea i figure that most of u would say skool bus well the janotior yelled at us for climbing the fence, and paula then ripped her favourti pants.

bowling was amaaaaazing x878644465452165445443412457. glow in the dark bowling at like 2pm , glow in the dark *thumbs up* music on at bowling alley at 2pm *thumbsdown*

ive never heard a station flop so much, the order was something like this:
miley cyrus

hsm

queen
are u gunna be my girl
camp rock

oh well we sang out loud, ppl stared , we laughed extremly hard.

i kicked paula's ass 3 outta 3 games x) then we gots stickers and candy. she finally came to my house in burlington then back to milton. chilled for a little went out again , tht was a little stressful but lets just put tht behind us. mom took us to mcdonald's then i slept over at paula's :)

rockband, sing star, music, some polish dessert *delishh*, and kenny's bday post, cuz yes were that amazing. if u havent seen it find it asap.

so here are some pictures from alicia and paula's excellent adventure

ain't she beautiful?

not getting yelled at for our obvious stupidity

Charlie's Angels bitchez

^^she loves this pic for the simple fact tht it looks like shes gunna hit the guy next to her

me bowling, the ball isnt really that neon , sad :(

SEMI IS THURRSDAY YES THATS IN LIKE 2 DAYS!

got all my accesories and my ticket.

still dont no what ima do with my makeup tho, oh well im not to worried about that

im so stoked.

this skol wekk is good so far, its only 4 weeks

monday-didnt go to skool

tuesday- left early for ortho

wednesday- damn no excuse to miss, but probbaly will be chill

.english- presentations

.buisness- well business is uber easy

.french- ill probably just have catching up to do , the class actually goes by fast

.geo- test to make up and well geo is pretty easy 2

thursday-again no excuse or i wont be allowed to go to semi

.english- easy intro to mockingbird which means no real work

.business- again easy

.french-again period goes by fast

.geo-again EASY

friday- NO SKOOL , and i going to ottawa

im so excited this week is half over WOOOOOH

seriously latley the first 2 periods are the only things tht interest me

french is boring

and geo is so repetative

oh well skool year is almost over :)

well any ways my darling blog readers

u guys give me a reason to continue writeing but there is NOTHING left to say

--aliciaa

stanley cup '09

pittsburgh all the way babyyyy!
2-1 so far
their na kick philies ass!
although last game sucked they lost like 6-3 :( SAD!
oh well tht aint gunna stop me from cheering my lungs out
i swear its like an obsession now! but its a fun obsession so w/e
thts pretty much all i make sure tht i watch now.

SEMIIIs commin up , this thursday cant wait
missed skool today so no ticket yet gotta get it tomorrow
nts 15 dollarrrrs
my face is still all fucked up not so red ne more it just looks like im peeling like insane.
its irritating but i hope its gone by thursday cuz tht'd b pretty crappy if i looked like this at semi i got everything planned out - the makeup. i have no clue wat im gunna do and its a wee bit frustrating

tim hortons camp '09!
yes im so kool im going, who else is?!
gunna be so fun and i can't wait,
u no what tht means tho, no EC for alicia.
i guess ill have to stick it out at BR :(
w/e it'll be fine i guess, just hope tht net year ppl aren't such assholes.

oooo did ne one watch desperate housewives last night?!
it was insane
edie died ....sad now there wont be as much bitchyness.
it was a really good episode and i think tht if u didnt watch it you should find it online right now seriously it was tht good, i tink the season finale is this sunday! which means reruns after tht BOOOOOOOOOOO

yet more of my oppinion sure to piss ppl off
okay tht STUPID hoedown throwdown by miley cyrus is worse then freaking crank dat LIKE JEEEEZ sorry i really dont like her. the only thing semi true about this song is the hoe in hoedown w/e on another uber young music group the jonas brothers are co-hosting this years mmva's , guess that means i probably won't go -_- i guess im just sick of disney stars , although i must admit tht demi and selena are pretty kool, i'd like to meet them.

babysitting on sundays is oveeer.
this sundy is supposed to be my last one but i'll be in ottawa!
kinda sad, ill miss seeing the little ones on sunday nights.
especially since last night didnt go over so well.
i was kinda moody, cuz i was tired.
and they weren't listening as well as they normally do. so last night didnt go over so well
oh well , ill still see them :)
babysitting tonight tho WOOOO , sorry i enjoy money.
so yea everything is pretty much going well.

oh btw im officially on twitter, yes i've bout into the craze
follow me at http://twitter.com/punkchick1442
hope thts the right url. like i said im new at it and tht may not be right :S

i'm kinda craving pizzza. does ne one else want pizza?
im actually kinda just hungry and nething will be good right about now...
there really isn't anything else to say though cuz i've been at home all day
okay bye
--aliciaa

blllaaaaahhh
omyjeez -_- i have an uber rash on my face , and it hurts :(
THANK JESUS it didnt happen next week b4 semi, i woulda been like WTF!
yay the week is over, its friday!
tht makes me so happy :) honestly you have no idea, if i had to spend another day at skool i woulda gone bizerk
but oh well no one's going bizerk today :)
has any one noticed that in the music vodeo for If You Seek Amy britney is acting like a stepford wife,,, it scares me :(
there is literally nothing to talk about it just seems like latley everything is the same thing every day and its boring
so hmm u may be wondering wats new with this chick
well this chick has a 62 in french and is gunna get like shot in the head(not literally)
all i have to say about that is that i knew academic french was a crap idea -_-
so watever fuck that , i rly dont care as long as i pass the course *fingerscrossed*
hmm lets here a little thoughjt in the back of my mind
"i really wish that you two would just shut your fucking mouths for once in your lives. cuz everything was good, i was happy and now thanks to u 2 i dont no how i feel or wat i think! like this just screwed me over majorly. and im like going crazy trying to figure this out :( right before semi too, real nice guys. and GOD can u two just leave each other alone. u say ur like 'bffls' but u def act the total opposite. one of u tries to do something to make the other happy and the other gets all pissed and embarresed and is ready to spill everything about u and then the one who tried to do something nice is all llike u wanna start lets do this then! Its all cut throat not thinking about wat ur gunna say , and im always stuck in the middle of it. at least i no now that im not trusting you with my secrets. im just sick and tired of having to stick up for u and then u piss me off and u no ur doing it. or having to fix things between u cuz u just look like asses in front of everyone LIKE CRAP GROW THE FUCK UP!"
so ya tht was my little thought right up there ^^ :)
pretty good to get tht out there
im kinda tired of everyone asking who im going to semi with like no body get it threw ur heads. it already bugs me a little do u really need to make it worse. ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
gaaaaaaaaahd
btw who listens to the latency? I DO I DO I DO !
mmm good music , and good looking , i love their lead singer he's a cutie
im not gunna put a pic up or even say his name cuz if u really wanted to no then u'll go search them up and then listen to their music <3
on another music note miley still sux. :)
i dont care if u like her and i just insulted u , i dont like her , to me she is fake and a tart , my honest oppinion i could go into detail but i dont need to waste my time on someone i hate cuz thts just ridiculousss.
has anyone realized that theres like 2 and a half months left of the skool year. can u say EXCITING cuz i no i can. :D:D:D:D:D
wowowow i just realized tht this note probably seems major like mood swingish cuz im like pissed then happy then bitchy then excited, OH WELL, im a teenager its just wat i do :)
latley it just seems like everyone is mood swingish tho, maybe its just everybody's time of the month which i guessmeans were all moody bitches and were all on an equal playing field. but some ppl are way to conceded to realize tht.*DOUCHES* gaah
well im still fuckin moody but w/e i gotta go get rdy to go out for dinner, YAY celebrating a wedding :D then i guess when i come home ill just blog again and bitch some more, so watch the fuck out! <3>
--aliciaa

LOOOONG WEEEKEEENND!

THURSDAY

so my long weekend started off prety INSANLEY BOMB! went for a "jog" with kayla which turned out to be us walking for like a half hour and catching upthen back to my house for MILK DUDS! and volleyball...which went over the fence x) tooo much fun! then kayla left sad ------> :(

hmm. wat did i do after that???right i bumed around the house like the little piggy i am! then mommy came home! and we went to blockbuster.

there was like a hudle of guys standing outside of the store and i was wearing my sweats and they were starring and i was like "gaaaaah stop"
so i got Shakespeare in Love which is offcially like my favourite movie.
it was amazing, but theres alot of sex in it , i covered my eyes like the 6 year old i am.
but omg, it was hot. he was hot. the guy tht plays shakespeare , HOLY MOTHER OF GOD! <3<3
Joseph Fiennes <3
mmm he's a cutie.
but now i rly wanna watch all of the merchant of venice.
we watched a part of it in english and im like in love with it.
oh yea and he's in it to , not y i like it tho!
it just adds to the fact :)
hmm. yummy <3

FRIDAY

today the little children on my street are comming over to paint EASTER EGGS =D
im excited , i just really like painting eggs :) i guess tht makes me weird. OH WELL!
but i gots to go get rdy! so peeace
--aliciaa

thts great its only noon -_-

fuuuck. okay so my catilidge piercing is REALLY pissing me off now. i cant get the backing to it back on and its like an insanly small ball and gaaaaah its so frustrating! like ive been trying to put it back since last night and its not working and im gunna go crazy trying to put it back on. and im really hungry but i dont feel like going downstairs! like no lie my stomach is gunna start feeding off itself soon. not that it matters if i go downstairs theres really no food in my house to eaat -_- i have a feeling today is just going to be one of those days when like 20874873626 things go wrong which is pretty upsettng..

--aliciaa

'Cause your my special lady ;)

so today im in such a good mood so im just gunna say really nice things about pplz :)

Kaaylaaa!
ur such a cutie and i love u
and when u read this remember to call me
i hate it when ur sads which is to often!
if i was any older i would steal u and take u to disney world...bad news is i cant afford plane tickets , OH WELL!
no more being sad cuz that makes me want to hurt pplz even more cuz they make u sad to
but i love u and u can be in the worst mood but go out of your way to make me smile :)

Schnurrrrrrr
hahaha balloon soccer on blankets is all i have to say!
to many wild stories and even wilder times :D
i think today at lunch was about as chill as we've ever been around each other , besides the times when we've been asleep... dont worry during the summer our sleepyovers (yes i called it a sleepyover) will go back to the way they used to be
a.k.a chocolate cake at all hours of the night and early ass morning
ice tea, balloons, blankets, and moderatly crappy movies tht make us pee our pants
your to much fun , but i can never get enough

Kiki
teehee my big sister is reading my blog, i guess that means i should be careful about wat i say, just kidding! (i warn u now this is about as mushy as ill ever get) i couldnt have asked for a better sister, ur always there for me when i need u although in those times im usually so angry tht i yell at you too. i lucked out with you, were alot closer then we used to be and i couldnt be happier about that. i hope you no that i miss u all the time even when im not thinking about how much i miss u. and this summer when your NOT home ill still come visit just cause i love you that much! hopefully this next week goes by fairly fast so that i can see you again!

Altheeeeaaaa(tommy)
too many good times last year, to bad highschool has us in such different schedules. this summer we'll just have to have even more good times to make up for skool. and yes that means coke, hedley, and big ass cookies. geez man i miss u. have you ever noticed that you are extremly huggable! no jokes like i dont no..OMG U JUST LOGGED ON TO MSN! creeeeepy..ne ways back to u being huggable like a teddy bear! ya i dont no wat it is but i like it. :)

Berna(CRIPPEN)
your an idiot and ur gunna get suspended one of these days. probably soon to cuz u skipped. see this is why you should listen to your good friend alicia! but oh well i still love you. in the simpliest terms the definition of random humor is you, so my shmexxy husband we go to the park and well u no the rest , just like for my bday ;) u no i prbably spelt your alternate name wrong its just been that long :(

Wysooooooocki!
man ur just insane. like no lie when i think paula i think, lighters, boy drama, and TMNT shirts! cuz ur just that kool( even tho your didnt buy me one :( <----see its upsetting) but thats ok. oh yea thanks for the money for snacks. i owe you a cookie, to bad we havent been able to hang out latley. i miss ur wild antics. ...kay so im done with the mushy stuff , at least for now sooo lit. test today , SOOOO easy. im not worried wat so ever for next year. lunch was pretty bomb to cuz it was like boiling out and it seemed like it was alot longer than it was supposed to be. 3rd was actually okay. idk why people wanted to skip its like afree day of nothingness and we get to do it again next year wooopee 4th was okie to , i thought tht spider guy was pretty kool but i didnt get to see the whole thing(if ur reading this and u actually paid attention please fill me in on wat happened) docotrs was easy im okie , it was a virus so u can all stop worrying that im like dying. im really hungry and i have to pee so im just gunna stop typing. :)

--aliciaa